Mum and Dad always drilled it into me to be independent, to work for those grades and that degree and finally that job. Now thats gone. Its hurts to rely on others. Yes its pride and I have been generous to others in my time but when the tables are turned, I am embarassed.
I know its not a handout, I should take it in the spirit it was intended. But my independence is gone and it feels like I am being reminded of it all the time. It lurks in the background when ever someone says "don't worry about the bill - let us take care of it".
